Laurie’s Positive Points:
“Take time and interest in checking out comedies.”
When I was young, I mostly did not have much access at all to funny people or things.
There was not a lot of funniness in my family, more of just a big drive to achieve.
As a result, I did not have a lot of humorous parts of my life then.
I also never sought out comedy, because so often I felt uncomfortable with it. I was especially sensitive to artists or comedians who would make fun of people.
I was resistant when comedians would put other people down, so I just did not seek out much comedy in general with my hyper sensitivity.
I liked comedians early on- who, when they made fun of something, it still made me feel like they were not being judgmental, or putting people down.
My total preference was a very easy line of respect for everything, while they teased about things.
But this for me seemed so hard to find, so I stopped trying. Then I shifted into watching TV with a lot of dark energy.
I just spent zero time at all listening to or reading funny things, because of my sensitivity, for most of my life.
But in the last few years, I have just purposely spent more time watching funny shows, because I want to have more practice at playing, and also at laughing.
I threw out the baby with the bathwater in my childhood. I was not willing to give comedies much chance because I felt not enthusiastic about them.
Then, throughout most of my life, I was never in the habit of checking out comedies, and thus, I would automatically go without them for a really long time because of this.
Just be willing to read or watch light TV. Find channels with comedy, and then turn to them regularly.
I literally made a pact with myself to watch more comedy, and shows that make me laugh, and make me feel light.
I systematically memorized which comedy channels I liked, so I can turn to them easily.
I literally felt uncomfortable some times in this process, but I think there is a slow process of internalizing something new.
But just having this pact with myself, allowed me to sit with the discomfort until it passed.
Know that it is just the ego- making noise about the picture, and, consequently I can deal the ego a swift hand of obliteration, and make sure the ego shuts up.
I find now that I enjoy my life so much more, because over the last three or four years, I regularly and consistently watch comedy.
I feel dramatically lighter because of it.
So just be willing to make the effort to get that laughing time in.