Lesson 6: “I am upset because I see something that is not there.”
This lesson says, “I cannot keep this form of upset and let the others go.”
The Course teaches that we all have certain emotions we harbor within us.
We have painful emotions that the ego contains in a very small part of our minds where we prevent God’s access. The ego does this regularly because it is easier to just not allow God to get into this small space in our minds.
We all have feelings we don’t want to deal with because the ego is so threatened by any commentary that may be translated as criticism.
Therefore, the ego prevents us from being able to hear those feelings that are buried deep in our hearts. These, we don’t know how to heal.
The Course gives us a method to heal this pain. We simply need to acknowledge and notice what we find within us. We are asked to simply take out and look at the feelings as they are.
This gives us the opportunity to get into our authentic self when we are not trying to hide anything our egos don’t want to acknowledge.
We want to find a way to deal with them. It is important that we give voice to those buried parts of us.
We just need to give God access to our minds and have faith that we will feel fine about sharing this part of us with God.
When we get vulnerable in those moments at looking at our inner shadows, then we just need to pray.
We can ask God to sit with us and understand that we are nervous about being so honest, even with God.
This is important to do with God. We just need to sit and pray and invite God’s wisdom to grace our minds with solutions. These will help us to do what needs to be done to take care of that part of us we may feel nervous about totally seeing.
Sometimes we get so afraid at being honest because of the raw feeling we have when the ego is not leading.
We just have to sit and breathe through those feelings, we can sit and allow God to be our comfort.
God can show us how to be gentle and kind with ourselves.
When we allow God to be our model, we can emulate what the Course teaches about God’s elevated quality of kindness and Love.
We are meant to adopt this for ourselves when we get lost in moments of exploring our inner shadow.
Just appreciate that nothing is ever wrong, even when we are beginning to look at those parts of ourselves emotionally that we may have had little familiarity with in the past.
Just allow whatever stumbling we may do in this process to be just part of the process.
We must let the process be perfect as it is because it is centered in that light within our minds that spurs us on to do God’s work.
We must remember God is giving us all the support we need to do what we want to do.
We just need to show up and keep coming back to our willingness to do what God inspires us to do.
God wants us to be happy and healthy. Therefore, we are given the gift of grace in being open to the process of knowing who we are within.