Lesson 220: Review: “I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.” “There is no peace except the peace of God.
The Course gives us practice returning to the message.
We forget on and on and on. We stumble temporarily.
Sometimes it seems like forever since we first found ourselves lying on the floor, unable to take an action step, even just a little nudge, unable to reverse our thinking.
Sometimes it feels like there is no reprieve from this self hatred that we cultivate constantly.
Even if we think we actually like ourselves or love ourselves, there are still many ways that we we discover we have secretly hidden this clogged energy that occurs simultaneously when we put ourselves into the position of doing something that is self-loathing.
Sometimes this loathing we can’t detect.
Thus, it gets immersed within some other behavior that seems more acceptable so we just carry on without stopping to set our minds straight. We all have these moments that seem unbearable.
We ask ourselves how will we go on with such a fragmented sense of self that we can’t muster the willingness to back ourselves around to our own corner where we feel at home.
We just feel sorry for ourselves and feel completely at a loss about finding a better way.
The Course- in Jesus’s words- is gentle and with kind compassion. Jesus is holding our hands in this process of realizing how truly frozen we are.